Telling Caroline about the therapist wasn’t the hardest part of our conversation, having her calm down was. “Viv, how on earth? Isn’t that illegal?” Well technically no, maybe? I mean I thought the incest thing was, but that turned out to be false so who knows. “It was consensual. I just can’t see her again, […]Read more "The Breakdown | (The Bare Essentials Series)"
“Where have you been?” Caroline said with a flare of dramatics as if I stepped off the face of the earth. “Around.” “What’s that suppose to mean?” “I had a life crisis jeez get off my back it’s not like you are my mother.” “I may not be, but your mother has been calling me for […]Read more "Possibly Illegal | (The Bare Essential Series)"
“Sometimes we need to escape, from life, emotions, an ex. But the big question is how to do this without being told I’m “dissociating” ( I actually used air quotes explaining this to my therapist).” I said with frustration wrapping my voice in a blanket. “Like honestly why can’t I just have a good wrestle […]Read more "Forbidden Affair | (The Bare Essentials Series)"
I feel empty, not in the sense of not having a person to satisfy me but in the sense that nothing seems to be making much sense in life. Goals & milestones are all part of life. I expected things out of my life by this age, mostly because I didn’t want to feel left […]Read more "Cherry Picker | (The Bare Essentials Series)"
“Abstances makes the heart grow founder and balls bluer. Here’s the thing blue balls are not just a thing with men. How do I know? Because I’ve had them. This is when Tinder comes in handy and I’m wistfully sliding up and down on some man’s Johnny Rocket withing a few hours.” This probably wasn’t the best […]Read more "Blondie | (The Bare Essentials Series)"
“Vivian, why are you sleeping around?” my therapist asked. “Why don’t you?” “That’s not the question.” “Well, does it really matter why?” “To understand your behavior it will.” Behavior, like what have I done so damn wrong? It’s not like I’m not being cautious, there’s a reason I order bulk in condoms. “Are you calling […]Read more "Solo Prostitution | (The Bare Essentials Series)"
Tomorrow is my first one on one session since the stone age and here I am sitting in my apartment staring at the walls wishing I had someone else to talk too. Someone who wouldn’t judge me for the emotional baggage I’ve deposited in the Delaware river. Dredging it up will be like sinking into mud, […]Read more "Plaster Prison | (The Bare Essential Series)"
I have a rule, never bring them back to my place. They will fill the gaps of serenity that I have provided myself in my home with memories that will become like flash movies. I don’t want to feel, but mostly I don’t want those memories. However, it still takes a while to get used […]Read more "Water Soluble | (The Bare Essential Series)"
“I don’t fucking need anyone! None of them want me, anyways.” “Vivian, that makes no sense. You are gorgeous, smart…” she trailed off as if there were no more words to be found in describing me. Personally, I thought I was resilient, courageous, adventurous, brave, smart, intelligent, and beautiful. Gorgeous seem to be an overstatement […]Read more "On My Own | (The Bare Essentials Series)"
“Why are you here?” said the skinny twig sitting next to me. I blanked for the first time as I looked across the room to find Wednesday’s seat unfulfilled with her soft, warm body. I glanced over to the person sitting next to me and saw her staring right at me. “Excuse me?” “It’s your […]Read more "Empty | (The Bare Essentials Series)"