Tomorrow is my first one on one session since the stone age and here I am sitting in my apartment staring at the walls wishing I had someone else to talk too. Someone who wouldn’t judge me for the emotional baggage I’ve deposited in the Delaware river. Dredging it up will be like sinking into mud, […]Read more "Plaster Prison | (The Bare Essential Series)"
Holiday’s revolve around food and my bipolar mother. It’s filled with disappointment, encouragement, guilt and hope. And despite all of it, I know I’ll be back again soon. Growing up with my mother around brought me into a different circle of peers. My father was distantly attentive if I needed money he was there, but […]Read more "Easter Ropes | (The Bare Essentials Series)"
Why do I have expectations? For something better, for someone to be different, for a chase at anything that isn’t this numbness I carry around? It’s not as if someone else could solve my issues, I’m facing that in a devastatingly drastic form. But it seems as though sometimes I can’t even tell when I’m […]Read more "Balls in my Court | (The Bare Essentials Series)"
The gravel crunches and I feel the jab of the pebbles and stones into my soul. Pressure points that make me twist and move to make way for the new surface that is underneath me. The walk back to the car isn’t much further, I hope. I’ve lost track of how many steps it took […]Read more "Soles"
I have a rule, never bring them back to my place. They will fill the gaps of serenity that I have provided myself in my home with memories that will become like flash movies. I don’t want to feel, but mostly I don’t want those memories. However, it still takes a while to get used […]Read more "Water Soluble | (The Bare Essential Series)"
“Why are you here?” said the skinny twig sitting next to me. I blanked for the first time as I looked across the room to find Wednesday’s seat unfulfilled with her soft, warm body. I glanced over to the person sitting next to me and saw her staring right at me. “Excuse me?” “It’s your […]Read more "Empty | (The Bare Essentials Series)"
After Mr. Wifey, I found myself slithering in heartache. Anyone, I mean literally anyone could scratch the itch that he left me with. To the point that self-worth wasn’t really even part of my vocabulary, after all, I did the dirtiest of deeds in the sanctity of “love”. You would think this is what landed […]Read more "Desired | (The Bare Essentials Series)"
Flickering lights, soft humming computers, the quiet chattering of people spread throughout the room, the smell of ink and paper wafting through the air and two weeks to devour my next alternate universe with choices the plenty. The librarian gave me a gentle nod and smile as I passed the reception desk, familiar faces with […]Read more "Fighter for the Future"
The screams are deafening, I look at the clock, 3 AM, right on time. With a heavy heart, I slink out of bed and make my way down the hall. Swinging open the door I find Katie thrashing among her Hello Kitty bedspread with horror. “NO! JULIE! DON’T GO!!!!” she screams as I stand watching […]Read more "Lies of the Heart"