Tomorrow is my first one on one session since the stone age and here I am sitting in my apartment staring at the walls wishing I had someone else to talk too. Someone who wouldn’t judge me for the emotional baggage I’ve deposited in the Delaware river. Dredging it up will be like sinking into mud, […]Read more "Plaster Prison | (The Bare Essential Series)"
Holiday’s revolve around food and my bipolar mother. It’s filled with disappointment, encouragement, guilt and hope. And despite all of it, I know I’ll be back again soon. Growing up with my mother around brought me into a different circle of peers. My father was distantly attentive if I needed money he was there, but […]Read more "Easter Ropes | (The Bare Essentials Series)"
Why do I have expectations? For something better, for someone to be different, for a chase at anything that isn’t this numbness I carry around? It’s not as if someone else could solve my issues, I’m facing that in a devastatingly drastic form. But it seems as though sometimes I can’t even tell when I’m […]Read more "Balls in my Court | (The Bare Essentials Series)"
I have a rule, never bring them back to my place. They will fill the gaps of serenity that I have provided myself in my home with memories that will become like flash movies. I don’t want to feel, but mostly I don’t want those memories. However, it still takes a while to get used […]Read more "Water Soluble | (The Bare Essential Series)"
“I don’t fucking need anyone! None of them want me, anyways.” “Vivian, that makes no sense. You are gorgeous, smart…” she trailed off as if there were no more words to be found in describing me. Personally, I thought I was resilient, courageous, adventurous, brave, smart, intelligent, and beautiful. Gorgeous seem to be an overstatement […]Read more "On My Own | (The Bare Essentials Series)"
After Mr. Wifey, I found myself slithering in heartache. Anyone, I mean literally anyone could scratch the itch that he left me with. To the point that self-worth wasn’t really even part of my vocabulary, after all, I did the dirtiest of deeds in the sanctity of “love”. You would think this is what landed […]Read more "Desired | (The Bare Essentials Series)"
Wednesday, her radiant beauty gave me butterflies, but to plunge into an unknown territory head first felt like a huge task. Was she even into girls? Was I? Yes, I confess I was not completely sure if lady lumps where part of my cup of tea at first. But there was something different with her, […]Read more "Wednesday Night (#2) | (The Bare Essentials Series)"
The news that I’m Bi was a shock, even for myself. I can still remember that first moment when my heart ached for another female. I was ten and on the bus to summer camp. She had dirty blonde hair, big brown eyes and a smile that lite up the room. Or maybe it was […]Read more "Summer Camp | (The Bare Essentials Series)"
What is there to do on a Wednesday Night in the middle of a city? Bars, bowling, local author reading, or like me group therapy. Maybe it’s because I like to talk or maybe it’s because I like to be heard, but there’s nothing like a good 3 minutes of me in front of a […]Read more "Wednesday Night | (The Bare Essentials Series)"
Let’s be clear when it comes to a romp in the bedroom, back seat or barnyard (hey everyone has their thing!) there is one main rule, always finish and for men, it should be asked politely where. So when his face turned into a sour patch pucker with a large moan I knew my ride […]Read more "Pluses and Minuses | (The Bare Essentials Series)"