Why do I have expectations? For something better, for someone to be different, for a chase at anything that isn’t this numbness I carry around? It’s not as if someone else could solve my issues, I’m facing that in a devastatingly drastic form. But it seems as though sometimes I can’t even tell when I’m […]Read more "Balls in my Court | (The Bare Essentials Series)"
I stared at the door to the meeting hall. Normally I would head right in with the fake smile I give when I tell my dates I’ll call them. This time, I could barely move. My mind was reeling and my self-worth seemed to be crashing into the pile of fake horse shit I let […]Read more "Goodbye Wednesday | (The Bare Essentials Series)"
I have a rule, never bring them back to my place. They will fill the gaps of serenity that I have provided myself in my home with memories that will become like flash movies. I don’t want to feel, but mostly I don’t want those memories. However, it still takes a while to get used […]Read more "Water Soluble | (The Bare Essential Series)"
“I don’t fucking need anyone! None of them want me, anyways.” “Vivian, that makes no sense. You are gorgeous, smart…” she trailed off as if there were no more words to be found in describing me. Personally, I thought I was resilient, courageous, adventurous, brave, smart, intelligent, and beautiful. Gorgeous seem to be an overstatement […]Read more "On My Own | (The Bare Essentials Series)"
“Why are you here?” said the skinny twig sitting next to me. I blanked for the first time as I looked across the room to find Wednesday’s seat unfulfilled with her soft, warm body. I glanced over to the person sitting next to me and saw her staring right at me. “Excuse me?” “It’s your […]Read more "Empty | (The Bare Essentials Series)"
After Mr. Wifey, I found myself slithering in heartache. Anyone, I mean literally anyone could scratch the itch that he left me with. To the point that self-worth wasn’t really even part of my vocabulary, after all, I did the dirtiest of deeds in the sanctity of “love”. You would think this is what landed […]Read more "Desired | (The Bare Essentials Series)"
Wednesday, her radiant beauty gave me butterflies, but to plunge into an unknown territory head first felt like a huge task. Was she even into girls? Was I? Yes, I confess I was not completely sure if lady lumps where part of my cup of tea at first. But there was something different with her, […]Read more "Wednesday Night (#2) | (The Bare Essentials Series)"
Insecurities, they are the epitome of evil even when they are a subconscious feeling. We have these connotations around us that everything should be a certain something or other and it’s fucking insane. Women should be a size 2, men should be taller than 5’5″ and paychecks should be larger that 4 figures. I’ve spent […]Read more "Impressively Small | (The Bare Essentials Series)"
The news that I’m Bi was a shock, even for myself. I can still remember that first moment when my heart ached for another female. I was ten and on the bus to summer camp. She had dirty blonde hair, big brown eyes and a smile that lite up the room. Or maybe it was […]Read more "Summer Camp | (The Bare Essentials Series)"
What is there to do on a Wednesday Night in the middle of a city? Bars, bowling, local author reading, or like me group therapy. Maybe it’s because I like to talk or maybe it’s because I like to be heard, but there’s nothing like a good 3 minutes of me in front of a […]Read more "Wednesday Night | (The Bare Essentials Series)"