The silence has been deafening. I miss Caroline more than I can explain. Since the night I stormed out I haven’t heard a word from her nor have I attempted to contact her. The urge to apologize was real, but I didn’t want to explain it. I didn’t want to tell her that I was […]Read more "Leaving time | The Bare Essentials Series"
“Abstances makes the heart grow founder and balls bluer. Here’s the thing blue balls are not just a thing with men. How do I know? Because I’ve had them. This is when Tinder comes in handy and I’m wistfully sliding up and down on some man’s Johnny Rocket withing a few hours.” This probably wasn’t the best […]Read more "Blondie | (The Bare Essentials Series)"
Why do I have expectations? For something better, for someone to be different, for a chase at anything that isn’t this numbness I carry around? It’s not as if someone else could solve my issues, I’m facing that in a devastatingly drastic form. But it seems as though sometimes I can’t even tell when I’m […]Read more "Balls in my Court | (The Bare Essentials Series)"
I stared at the door to the meeting hall. Normally I would head right in with the fake smile I give when I tell my dates I’ll call them. This time, I could barely move. My mind was reeling and my self-worth seemed to be crashing into the pile of fake horse shit I let […]Read more "Goodbye Wednesday | (The Bare Essentials Series)"
“I don’t fucking need anyone! None of them want me, anyways.” “Vivian, that makes no sense. You are gorgeous, smart…” she trailed off as if there were no more words to be found in describing me. Personally, I thought I was resilient, courageous, adventurous, brave, smart, intelligent, and beautiful. Gorgeous seem to be an overstatement […]Read more "On My Own | (The Bare Essentials Series)"
After Mr. Wifey, I found myself slithering in heartache. Anyone, I mean literally anyone could scratch the itch that he left me with. To the point that self-worth wasn’t really even part of my vocabulary, after all, I did the dirtiest of deeds in the sanctity of “love”. You would think this is what landed […]Read more "Desired | (The Bare Essentials Series)"
Flickering lights, soft humming computers, the quiet chattering of people spread throughout the room, the smell of ink and paper wafting through the air and two weeks to devour my next alternate universe with choices the plenty. The librarian gave me a gentle nod and smile as I passed the reception desk, familiar faces with […]Read more "Fighter for the Future"
Insecurities, they are the epitome of evil even when they are a subconscious feeling. We have these connotations around us that everything should be a certain something or other and it’s fucking insane. Women should be a size 2, men should be taller than 5’5″ and paychecks should be larger that 4 figures. I’ve spent […]Read more "Impressively Small | (The Bare Essentials Series)"
The news that I’m Bi was a shock, even for myself. I can still remember that first moment when my heart ached for another female. I was ten and on the bus to summer camp. She had dirty blonde hair, big brown eyes and a smile that lite up the room. Or maybe it was […]Read more "Summer Camp | (The Bare Essentials Series)"
With a forced smile and roll of the cashier’s eyes, I could tell that it was getting to be that time of day when I needed to seclude myself with a beer and reruns of some comedy show that I’ve likely seen ten million times. My attitude towards the world is in complete ruins since […]Read more "Ghost of my past"