It happened in slow motion, my worst fear was literally unfolding right before my eyes. With a huge crash, I watched her head bounce off the floor as the room turned to stop and stare. My first thought was “shit that’s not good”, second thought was “thank god it wasn’t me”, third thought was “well […]Read more "Early Finish | (The Bare Essentials Series)"
“Where have you been?” Caroline said with a flare of dramatics as if I stepped off the face of the earth. “Around.” “What’s that suppose to mean?” “I had a life crisis jeez get off my back it’s not like you are my mother.” “I may not be, but your mother has been calling me for […]Read more "Possibly Illegal | (The Bare Essential Series)"
“Sometimes we need to escape, from life, emotions, an ex. But the big question is how to do this without being told I’m “dissociating” ( I actually used air quotes explaining this to my therapist).” I said with frustration wrapping my voice in a blanket. “Like honestly why can’t I just have a good wrestle […]Read more "Forbidden Affair | (The Bare Essentials Series)"
“Vivian, why are you sleeping around?” my therapist asked. “Why don’t you?” “That’s not the question.” “Well, does it really matter why?” “To understand your behavior it will.” Behavior, like what have I done so damn wrong? It’s not like I’m not being cautious, there’s a reason I order bulk in condoms. “Are you calling […]Read more "Solo Prostitution | (The Bare Essentials Series)"
Her lips were soft, her touch firm, she smelled of roses and her juices tasted like liquid velvet. She was a distraction, someone I knew in my heart I didn’t want to see again but fulfilled me for the night. I laid in bed curled up in my sheets into the early morning hours staring […]Read more "Slithering Control | (The Bare Essentials Series)"
Tomorrow is my first one on one session since the stone age and here I am sitting in my apartment staring at the walls wishing I had someone else to talk too. Someone who wouldn’t judge me for the emotional baggage I’ve deposited in the Delaware river. Dredging it up will be like sinking into mud, […]Read more "Plaster Prison | (The Bare Essential Series)"
Holiday’s revolve around food and my bipolar mother. It’s filled with disappointment, encouragement, guilt and hope. And despite all of it, I know I’ll be back again soon. Growing up with my mother around brought me into a different circle of peers. My father was distantly attentive if I needed money he was there, but […]Read more "Easter Ropes | (The Bare Essentials Series)"
Why do I have expectations? For something better, for someone to be different, for a chase at anything that isn’t this numbness I carry around? It’s not as if someone else could solve my issues, I’m facing that in a devastatingly drastic form. But it seems as though sometimes I can’t even tell when I’m […]Read more "Balls in my Court | (The Bare Essentials Series)"
“I don’t fucking need anyone! None of them want me, anyways.” “Vivian, that makes no sense. You are gorgeous, smart…” she trailed off as if there were no more words to be found in describing me. Personally, I thought I was resilient, courageous, adventurous, brave, smart, intelligent, and beautiful. Gorgeous seem to be an overstatement […]Read more "On My Own | (The Bare Essentials Series)"
Wednesday, her radiant beauty gave me butterflies, but to plunge into an unknown territory head first felt like a huge task. Was she even into girls? Was I? Yes, I confess I was not completely sure if lady lumps where part of my cup of tea at first. But there was something different with her, […]Read more "Wednesday Night (#2) | (The Bare Essentials Series)"